LAST NIGHT I CRIED AND I DON'T KNOW WHY
THINGS IN LIFE AREN'T GREAT BUT THEY AREN'T BAD
THERE ARE SOME THINGS I SURELY WISH I HAD
AND I HAVE NO PROBLEM GETTING BY
BUT LAST NIGHT I CRIED...
I CAN'T EXPLAIN THAT FEELING I FELT
THAT 1ST TEAR DROP THAT STAINED MY FACE
LORD I PRAYED YOUR AMAZING GRACE
FALL UPON ME TO REMOVE THIS WELT
YET STILL LAST NIGHT I CRIED...
I THOUGHT ABOUT MY ENTIRE DAY
WHAT DID I DO THAT CAUSED THIS
WAS IT SOMETHING SAID, SOMETHING I MISSED
I DIDN'T KNOW JUST WHAT TO SAY
YET STILL LAST NIGHT I CRIED...
IT STRUCK ME HARD BUT NOW I SEE
I AM JOYFUL, HAPPY AS CAN BE
I DIDN'T THINK THIS COULD BE ME
BUT LAST NIGHT I CRIED BECAUSE I'M FREE
**THANK YOU LORD**
Copyright © Chanel V TIllman
The name STORM describes my chaotic and unpredictable nature. My GEMINI mind is ALWAYS running. Here you will find the twists, turns & adversities of my life including weight loss/fitness, natural hair care, my son's incarceration, firearm instruction and simply moving along my Journey to 50. May 2019 I obtained my B.S. in Converged Communications and now I am learning to love again. This will be interesting and to it all I say BRING IT!
INSIDE I CRIED
The day fire caught hold of my soul
The day I became half and no longer whole
The day I look back to more often than not
The day at some point I'd thought I'd forgot
The day I laid down all I could for another
The day I seperated from my father and mother
The day I left behind my sisters and brother
A day like NO day-like NO day of another
The day I realized at that point I was grown
The day I realized I was all on my own
The day I felt weak but had to stand strong
The day I remember, it just all seemed wrong
The day I watched the scene change...all alone
The day I didn't feel like QUEEN of my throne
The day my existence became so smothered
A day like NO day - like NO day of another
Words escaped my existence that day
My cries, my plies, my persistence that day
If you would just embrace me that day
It was oh so hard to face you that day
Head dropped in shame as the tears fell that day
It didn't feel the same, full of fear on that day
Not realizing my life was changed on that day
How you took away all of my sins on that day
I smile all the time as I think of that day
I gave my life to you on that day
Never again to look back on that day
For my life was on the right track as of that day
Father I thank you for all that you've done
For sending us down your only Son
So we no longer have to suffer the price
For this is the reason your Son gave his life
He bore it all on the cross, for us He died
And for this very reason INSIDE I CRIED
Chanel V Tillman 2011
The day I became half and no longer whole
The day I look back to more often than not
The day at some point I'd thought I'd forgot
The day I laid down all I could for another
The day I seperated from my father and mother
The day I left behind my sisters and brother
A day like NO day-like NO day of another
The day I realized at that point I was grown
The day I realized I was all on my own
The day I felt weak but had to stand strong
The day I remember, it just all seemed wrong
The day I watched the scene change...all alone
The day I didn't feel like QUEEN of my throne
The day my existence became so smothered
A day like NO day - like NO day of another
Words escaped my existence that day
My cries, my plies, my persistence that day
If you would just embrace me that day
It was oh so hard to face you that day
Head dropped in shame as the tears fell that day
It didn't feel the same, full of fear on that day
Not realizing my life was changed on that day
How you took away all of my sins on that day
I smile all the time as I think of that day
I gave my life to you on that day
Never again to look back on that day
For my life was on the right track as of that day
Father I thank you for all that you've done
For sending us down your only Son
So we no longer have to suffer the price
For this is the reason your Son gave his life
He bore it all on the cross, for us He died
And for this very reason INSIDE I CRIED
Chanel V Tillman 2011
H.A.T.E. (WHY)
I am not usually the one to blog about such things because I am an upfront person and believe in handling situations head on, verbally but I was blown away at a recent event by some of the petty nonsensical actions I observed. Case and point...if you were cool before certain individual arrive to a venue be cool while they are there as well. If you were having a good time enjoying friends/family before certain individuals arrive to a venue continue doing just that...DO YOU! Is there really a reason to show your behind, stepping outside of the box you were in prior to the individual arriving on the scene as well as make inappropriate references to other patrons attending via social networks about their choice of clothing when you yourself were not the best dressed? After seeing and reading these things I have come to realize that there are a LOT of insecure, intimidated, jealous and unhappy folk in this "circle" of life" that I saw on that evening.
Stop pretending to be happy by shouting it all over social networks and visibly "fake" looking happy pictures and actually BE HAPPY! When your actions do not dictate the happiness of which you constantly speak what is the point?
I took the liberty of breaking the word "HATE" down by letter definition. It is SO fitting for this particular group of visibly unhappy individuals:
H - HOSTILITY &
A - AVERSION
T - TOWARDS
E - EVERYONE WHO YOU WISH YOU COULD BE OR BE LIKE!
If you "DO YOU" and be the best you that you can be you don't EVER have to worry about what another person is doing, has done or will do...you will not have the time! I just pray that folk get the picture of how NOT cool these types of actions are and in the future seek to better themselves mentally, emotionally, spiritually and most of all PHYSICALLY!!! Do not throw rocks in a house made of glass...they tend to shatter all around you!
That is all...I feel so much better!
Stop pretending to be happy by shouting it all over social networks and visibly "fake" looking happy pictures and actually BE HAPPY! When your actions do not dictate the happiness of which you constantly speak what is the point?
I took the liberty of breaking the word "HATE" down by letter definition. It is SO fitting for this particular group of visibly unhappy individuals:
H - HOSTILITY &
A - AVERSION
T - TOWARDS
E - EVERYONE WHO YOU WISH YOU COULD BE OR BE LIKE!
If you "DO YOU" and be the best you that you can be you don't EVER have to worry about what another person is doing, has done or will do...you will not have the time! I just pray that folk get the picture of how NOT cool these types of actions are and in the future seek to better themselves mentally, emotionally, spiritually and most of all PHYSICALLY!!! Do not throw rocks in a house made of glass...they tend to shatter all around you!
That is all...I feel so much better!
VENUS VS MARS
Want to know the answers to questions like "what are men looking for in a woman?" "What does it take to keep your man satisfied?" Amongst others? Well you don't want to miss the 2nd edition of Venus vs Mars going down Feb 28th! The 1st., Irvin & Rudy represented for the men (Mars). This Edition, there's an entirely new Panel AND HOST which means new progressive thoughts & ideas. Also the entertainment is refreshing. This is not the average event! It's only for those who indulge. Heels & Hard Bottoms are a must.
UDS/Southern Comfort Ent. Presents:
Venus vs Mars The relationship forum between the sexes/open dialogue of intimacy...
Location: 1827 North Pearl St.
Time: 7-10pm
Dress: Sophisticated & Sexy
ADMISSION: $15.00
This event is meant to ignite convo between the male & female
dealing with sensitive topics that will help us obtain closure and bridge
the gaps. There will be open discussions, and Q&A sessions as
well as live entertainment provide by local Neo Soul and Spoken word
artist all touching on relationship topics and subject matter.
Each participant will be given a piece of paper at the door where they will be obligated to write down a topic or question that they would like to be discussed during the forum.
They then will drop it in the ceremonial vase in the middle of the room.
There will be one mediator and a panel of free thinkers on stage to shed light on presented topics.
The DJ will cue relationship songs dealing with each topic as the mediator pulls them from the ceremonial vase...
Hosted by Da Hostess: Ms Chanel
Spoken Word Artists for the event include....
Love Reigns
The IGive
Reformed Butterfly
Monsta
Men Panelists......
Bill Thompson
Brian Thompson
Earl Smalls
Women Panelists....
Donteacia Seymore
Lisa Jimenez
UDS/Southern Comfort Ent. Presents:
Venus vs Mars The relationship forum between the sexes/open dialogue of intimacy...
Location: 1827 North Pearl St.
Time: 7-10pm
Dress: Sophisticated & Sexy
ADMISSION: $15.00
This event is meant to ignite convo between the male & female
dealing with sensitive topics that will help us obtain closure and bridge
the gaps. There will be open discussions, and Q&A sessions as
well as live entertainment provide by local Neo Soul and Spoken word
artist all touching on relationship topics and subject matter.
Each participant will be given a piece of paper at the door where they will be obligated to write down a topic or question that they would like to be discussed during the forum.
They then will drop it in the ceremonial vase in the middle of the room.
There will be one mediator and a panel of free thinkers on stage to shed light on presented topics.
The DJ will cue relationship songs dealing with each topic as the mediator pulls them from the ceremonial vase...
Hosted by Da Hostess: Ms Chanel
Spoken Word Artists for the event include....
Love Reigns
The IGive
Reformed Butterfly
Monsta
Men Panelists......
Bill Thompson
Brian Thompson
Earl Smalls
Women Panelists....
Donteacia Seymore
Lisa Jimenez
SISTA CRY NO MORE
JOIN COACH JAY AND I AS WE EMBARK ON A NEW SERIES CALLED "SISTA CRY NO MORE". OUR MISSION IS TO BE AN ADVOCATE TO WOMEN TO FULFILL THEIR GREATEST POTENTIAL WITH UNDERSTANDING, INFORMATIONAL MATERIALS AND SERVICES THAT FACILITATE HEALING THE MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT.
COACH JAY AND I WILL TOUCH ON ISSUES THAT "VEX" WOMEN OF ALL COLOR DAILY...SINGLE PARENTHOOD, SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES, RELATIONSHIPS AND MORE.
JOIN US AT WWW.SISTACRYNOMORE.NING.COM TO STAY INFORMED OF WHAT WE WILL BE DOING.
YOU CAN FIND US ON THE FOLLOWING SITES:
MS CHANEL: TWITTER NAME: @DAHOSTESS
FACEBOOK AND MYSPACE: EMAIL ADDRESS: DAHOSTESS1057@YAHOO.COM
COACH JAY: TWITTER NAME: @LEANONME_COACHJ
FACEBOOK AND MYSPACE: EMAIL ADDRESS: COACHJAY@ROCKETMAIL.COM
YOU CAN ALSO JOIN US AT WWW.LEANONME.NING.COM FOR COACH JAY AND MS CHANEL'S "LEAN ON ME" RADIO SHOW. THE MISSION OF "LEAN ON ME" IS TO TARGET AND ENHANCE THE ABILITY OF ALL FAMILIES TO ADDRESS ISSUES THAT PLAGUE US ON A DAILY BASIS. FROM INCARCERATED CHILDREN, DOMESTIC ABUSE AND MORE. LISTEN LIVE (IN JACKSONVILLE, FL) BY TUNING IN TO 105.3 FM OR ONLINE BORDESKOHNFOUNDATION.COM.
COACH JAY AND I WILL TOUCH ON ISSUES THAT "VEX" WOMEN OF ALL COLOR DAILY...SINGLE PARENTHOOD, SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES, RELATIONSHIPS AND MORE.
JOIN US AT WWW.SISTACRYNOMORE.NING.COM TO STAY INFORMED OF WHAT WE WILL BE DOING.
YOU CAN FIND US ON THE FOLLOWING SITES:
MS CHANEL: TWITTER NAME: @DAHOSTESS
FACEBOOK AND MYSPACE: EMAIL ADDRESS: DAHOSTESS1057@YAHOO.COM
COACH JAY: TWITTER NAME: @LEANONME_COACHJ
FACEBOOK AND MYSPACE: EMAIL ADDRESS: COACHJAY@ROCKETMAIL.COM
YOU CAN ALSO JOIN US AT WWW.LEANONME.NING.COM FOR COACH JAY AND MS CHANEL'S "LEAN ON ME" RADIO SHOW. THE MISSION OF "LEAN ON ME" IS TO TARGET AND ENHANCE THE ABILITY OF ALL FAMILIES TO ADDRESS ISSUES THAT PLAGUE US ON A DAILY BASIS. FROM INCARCERATED CHILDREN, DOMESTIC ABUSE AND MORE. LISTEN LIVE (IN JACKSONVILLE, FL) BY TUNING IN TO 105.3 FM OR ONLINE BORDESKOHNFOUNDATION.COM.
"COCOCKULISM – THE LANGUAGE OF CHOICE"
COCOCKULISM…SPELLED C-O-C-O-C-K-U-L-I-S-M
NOW YOU ASK, WHAT IS COCOCKULISM?
IT'S THE LANGUAGE OF CHOICE
IT'S THE SOUND THAT GIVES THE MIGHTY PENIS A VOICE
IT'S THE WAY THAT DICK AND I CUMUNICATE
LET ME SPELL THAT FOR YOU…C-U-M-U-N-I-C-A-T-E SO THAT THERE ARE NO MISTAKES
ALL WOMEN SPEAK DICK RATHER SHE KNOWS IT OR NOT
SOME SPEAK IT RATHER FLUENTLY, LIKE MYSELF AND SOME HAVE TO GIVE IT ALL THEY GOT
JUST TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PLAN OF THE MAN WITH THE DICK IN HIS HAND IS
WATCHING IT GO FROM LIMP, TO HALF BAKED TO FULL METAL JACKET AND HOW GRAND IT IS
TO KNOW IT'S BECAUSE OF HIS MILKSHAKE YOUR ASS IN THE YARD CAN BE KEPT
THAT BACK THRUST AND TONGUE LASHING OFF YOUR FEET YOU CAN BE SWEPT
I AIN'T EVER, NO NEVER HEARD ANYTHING SWEETER
TURNS ME INTO A COLD BLOODED, WET ASSED
DING A LING BEATER
LET ME BREAK IT DOWN FURTHER, BRING ABOUT A BETTER CLARITY
WITHOUT COCOCKULISM I HAVE NO IDEA SEXUALLY WHERE I'D BE…
NOW YOU ASK, WHAT IS COCOCKULISM?
IT'S THE LANGUAGE OF CHOICE
IT'S THE SOUND THAT GIVES THE MIGHTY PENIS A VOICE
IT'S THE WAY THAT DICK AND I CUMUNICATE
LET ME SPELL THAT FOR YOU…C-U-M-U-N-I-C-A-T-E SO THAT THERE ARE NO MISTAKES
ALL WOMEN SPEAK DICK RATHER SHE KNOWS IT OR NOT
SOME SPEAK IT RATHER FLUENTLY, LIKE MYSELF AND SOME HAVE TO GIVE IT ALL THEY GOT
JUST TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PLAN OF THE MAN WITH THE DICK IN HIS HAND IS
WATCHING IT GO FROM LIMP, TO HALF BAKED TO FULL METAL JACKET AND HOW GRAND IT IS
TO KNOW IT'S BECAUSE OF HIS MILKSHAKE YOUR ASS IN THE YARD CAN BE KEPT
THAT BACK THRUST AND TONGUE LASHING OFF YOUR FEET YOU CAN BE SWEPT
I AIN'T EVER, NO NEVER HEARD ANYTHING SWEETER
TURNS ME INTO A COLD BLOODED, WET ASSED
DING A LING BEATER
LET ME BREAK IT DOWN FURTHER, BRING ABOUT A BETTER CLARITY
WITHOUT COCOCKULISM I HAVE NO IDEA SEXUALLY WHERE I'D BE…
"DICK CUM-UNICATION" (BLACK EROTICA)
I LOVE DICK AND DICK LOVES ME
IT'S A RELATIONSHIP WITH WHICH
NOTHING OR NOONE CAN COMPETE
EVERY NOW AND AGAIN
I HAVE TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES
SO THAT EYE TO EYE WITH ME
DICK CAN MEET, GREET AND AGREE
LET ME TELL YOU NOW…I SPEAK DICK
YES IT HAS A LANGUAGE ALL ITS OWN
WE SPEAK TO EACH OTHER ON A REGULAR, DAILY EVEN…RATHER IN PUBLIC OR ALONE
WHEN DICK SPEAKS DICK DOESN'T HAVE MUCH TO SAY
BUT WHAT LEADS UP TO IT REQUIRES NOTHING BUT A TOUCH AND WE'RE WELL ON OUR WAY
DICK SPEAKS FOR 5-6 SECONDS AT THE MOST
AND THE CONVERSATION IS OFTEN BRIEF
BUT THE END RESULT OF DICK SPEAKING
BRINGS ABOUT SATISFICTION, WELLNESS AND RELIEF
THUS BRINGING ME BACK TO MY LOVE FOR DICK
THE FEEL, TASTE, LOOK, SMELL AND YES THE SOUND OF IT
YES I SAID THE SOUND…I TOLD YOU DICK SPEAKS AND RIGHT NOW THEY'RE ALL SAYING
COCOCKULISM IS THE LANGUAGE AND Y'ALL THOUGHT SHE WAS PLAYING
AND WHEN SHE COMES BACK SHE'LL BREAK IT DOWN AND EXPLAIN IT ALL
BUT IN THE MEANTIME ENJOY BLACK EROTICA AND THE NEXT ENTERTAINER SHE'S ABOUT TO CALL…
THANK YOU DICK FOR BRINGING ME SO MUCH JOY, PLEASURE AND GREAT CONVERSATION OVER THE YEARS!!!
IT'S A RELATIONSHIP WITH WHICH
NOTHING OR NOONE CAN COMPETE
EVERY NOW AND AGAIN
I HAVE TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES
SO THAT EYE TO EYE WITH ME
DICK CAN MEET, GREET AND AGREE
LET ME TELL YOU NOW…I SPEAK DICK
YES IT HAS A LANGUAGE ALL ITS OWN
WE SPEAK TO EACH OTHER ON A REGULAR, DAILY EVEN…RATHER IN PUBLIC OR ALONE
WHEN DICK SPEAKS DICK DOESN'T HAVE MUCH TO SAY
BUT WHAT LEADS UP TO IT REQUIRES NOTHING BUT A TOUCH AND WE'RE WELL ON OUR WAY
DICK SPEAKS FOR 5-6 SECONDS AT THE MOST
AND THE CONVERSATION IS OFTEN BRIEF
BUT THE END RESULT OF DICK SPEAKING
BRINGS ABOUT SATISFICTION, WELLNESS AND RELIEF
THUS BRINGING ME BACK TO MY LOVE FOR DICK
THE FEEL, TASTE, LOOK, SMELL AND YES THE SOUND OF IT
YES I SAID THE SOUND…I TOLD YOU DICK SPEAKS AND RIGHT NOW THEY'RE ALL SAYING
COCOCKULISM IS THE LANGUAGE AND Y'ALL THOUGHT SHE WAS PLAYING
AND WHEN SHE COMES BACK SHE'LL BREAK IT DOWN AND EXPLAIN IT ALL
BUT IN THE MEANTIME ENJOY BLACK EROTICA AND THE NEXT ENTERTAINER SHE'S ABOUT TO CALL…
THANK YOU DICK FOR BRINGING ME SO MUCH JOY, PLEASURE AND GREAT CONVERSATION OVER THE YEARS!!!
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